Or: How To Not Be a Pathetic Failure of a Book Dragon
I am currently a terrible excuse for a book dragon, a bookworm, or even a book-salamander.
Recently I committed the cardinal sins of bookworms. After finally being able to temporarily lift my self-imposed book-buying ban (it’s called “I was broke because I’m a stay at home mom, but then Christmas happened”), I mistakenly ordered the wrong title. Twice. In the same shipment.
Then after that, I proceeded to use one of my holiday coupons to obtain a book I “hadn’t read yet when everybody else has,” and it turned out I had already read it. But this fact didn’t hit me until after I saw said book on the “new” shelf in my local library. And recognition sparked.
Along with a fair amount of guilt, and the sudden desire to go hide in a dark hole until I had forgotten this incident/received the correct books and acted like this was my clever scheme all the time.
How did this happen? you may ask. Well, I chalk it up to the stress of the holidays, the post-holiday letdown, and the flurry of returning to school and work amid the potential for snowstorms/ice/complete thaw and flash flooding. All of this, accompanied by the fact Muffin will now be seeing three therapists and two specialists before winter is out, significantly frazzled my brain.
Now, I just posted a whole discussion about how I won’t be using the library very much this year, due to a number of factors (it can be found by entering “Forming New Reading Habits” into the search bar). And this resolution stands firm. After I confidently queued up my TBR for January and February on my hold requests, figuring they would come in 2 or 3 at a time, and then receiving them all on the same day (no, not kidding) — I totally remember why I made these plans to begin with.
Yes, library books can be renewed, but only for so long. Whereas purchased books can hang around on your shelf/desk/closet for potentially the rest of the century. Acquiring a long TBR helps stave off boredom. Re-reading selections you only read once will probably reacquaint you with a great story that’s nearly been forgotten. And it’s financially prudent to double check your shelves/library checkout history before hitting that order button.
Am I embarrassed? Yeah, somewhat. But I also am reminded afresh of why changing my reading habits was such a big deal. Time is a real issue for me. I have 2 kids and a novel to finish getting proofed and printed, a. sequel to complete, and appointments to make. And miles to go before I sleep.
Rather than frantically running to the library once a week hoping to find a gazillion exciting new releases that bloggers have been enthusing about, I’ll content myself with stocking up on those items that have been on my Amazon.com wish list for as long as 5 years. (Erm, ahem…yup, sadly, this is true.)
This method will also help me re-secure my title of book dragon because I will be jealousy hoarding the contents of my bookcase like the gold they are.